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2009-11-20T04:15:00.001-07:00

Moved to on-sugar instead :) LJ is dead ! Remember to visit !

2009-10-01T15:36:00.014-07:00

I wana be with Him, till the end ! Thanks Baby for every single thing you've done & changed . So proud to have you :) 17months ~ Edited: Using baby's lappy now after a horrible terror from him jusnow D: Heading for lantern now :D MOVEDDD FOR A MOMENT !!!!!! http://thessaysh.livejournal.com/549.html or http://sweetestformoftorturee.onsugar.com http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k2D07wrBNMk Hi,Bye world . Sucha B-I-T-C-H !

2009-09-28T14:19:00.015-07:00

Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end . Love doesn't just sit there like a stone; it has to be made like a bread. remade all the time, made new .

2009-09-24T16:39:00.005-07:00

Disappointment, whole freag-ing` day . Kind=Useless Humble='Kosong' Caring=Junk of shit Aiming high to get my way out and away . - - - - - - -- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

2009-09-21T15:23:00.005-07:00

Monday. Happy Monthsary Baby<3 1st day. woke Baby up and he sent me there :)

2009-09-20T00:08:00.000-07:00

A Man's heart plans his Way, but de Lord directed his steps! Proverbs 16v9 .

2009-09-16T14:49:00.007-07:00

THURS. A pretty face but a bloody evil heart? And a fat/ugly lady who's heart is nice? Who do you chose? (p.s) not referring to me, just pictures dude !

2009-09-16T13:52:00.009-07:00

THURS. Doubting in progress............DAMN (SB SUAY) ! I won't walk away from people i love/care, if i do means you're just under my feet. Anytime you'll be kicked off far away from ME with this heels ! I don't wana be hurt, as how i was during P1 & Sec1 :( Maybe i was foolish timid & scared to stand up for myself than. Now i no longer believe , As what BABY mentioned : If they really cared for me, they would turn back for me .....(re-phrased) LANLAN, what a waste ! Metallic on the out, Jelly in the in . Ok shall stop emo post ! SMU-SIS block Did i mentioned i was TIP-EDD by a birthday girl's dad? $.$ It took me hours t chase them out as it was nearly 1200 . And so, her dad gave me cash before heading out *shy & her mum gave me 2goodie bags . This weekend is gona be thrilling yet again ,wonder what event this time round ,COOL. Cab fare included this time round (evil smile w BABY) MUHAHAHAS! 4days left before 'ION' (HELLO) and (BYE) 'ITE' <3 Miss those time after school, we would be hanging around like some lost kids ! Ohmymy, i still prefer her CUTE voice ! Recent chalet~ - - - -

2009-09-12T22:10:00.000-07:00

Love is patient, Love is kind . He left, with words unsaid . Too much emotion WHY? Do you truly love a person but treated her like junk ?

2009-09-10T14:59:00.000-07:00

Bye Meiyan Darling, be back SOON alright . :) Chalet in a few hours time, HA HA HA Been so long since i last stepped into a room . Perhaps 2-3 months back?! uhhhh. I miss BABY ! BYES~

2009-09-07T17:02:00.000-07:00

School later on, wokeup freaking early again -.- Had breakfast and used comp . My timing has no night and SUPER EARLY morning :$ Continue posting when i'm FREEEEE ~ *TODD said: SMU schedule is full ...SHAGGies ): Next time must 'GAN JIONG' book working daYS . No money = No life ! . . . . . . . . BYE~

2009-09-04T16:18:00.000-07:00

4Sept,Friday. Went Changi area t visit Baby's bro . So touched :$ Than went t "ION" t check out my manager and clothings -.= HAHAHA ! Walked & slacked , saw LionDance Competiton . Watched them till saw familiar faces Baby&i walked away . :D 3Sept,Thursday. Class headed t Army Open House'09 Slacked at Starbucks rather than touring around . Fun peeps=Happy day :) Followed Baby t get change . Went SMU started working ! 1st time ever i work this job that is super RELAXXXX and pay is like OMGXZXZX . I sat there and chatted w cliques till off . Baby in pink was out waiting for me <3 2Sept,Wednesday. Watched Year One, Dumb show-.- 1Sept,Tuesday. Watched Scandal Matters w sisters :) <33

2009-09-01T07:28:00.000-07:00

Hurts so bad . Nan ren Nu Ren* Imiz'em alrdy ,when we departed afew mins ago ! Can I see your Tmr like how it was lastyear? I feel comfortable with u girls only. Always in my heart ,through thick or thin . I cant get t slpt .

2009-08-28T11:59:00.001-07:00

Head t expo, sales sucha bore . Same stuffs over and over again -.- Aljunied=factory. Signed contract . Lucky Baby was guiding me or else i'll be lost . Catch the sight of me in "ION" folks :$ The Final Destination is M18 like what Fuck ! So caught 'TheProposal' instead . 1hr45min passed so quick when you're enjoying the movies with the one you love n obviously a fantastic movie! After the show on the escalator~ . . . . . ME: Baby you noticed the couple beside us was doing 'something' unusual? BABY: Reali meh? I didn't see, you know me right I don't see such things. I was laughing away throughout the movies only where will see . Should tell me earlier i can disturb them . ME: HAHAHAHA! Ya, I know you . But so obvious they're acting weird at the corner . Can see the guy like one kind. Legs moving around. Tissue heard. Even zips sounds can be heard luh . BABY: Aiyar you don't know nowadays v.common do such stuffs in cinemas ?........... Laughs! What some freak teenagers I saw. Like hello i'm beside them and enjoying my show . Desperate till like that, sia la ! *MeiYan darling going HK for a week! ;( I'm sure gona miss her . Will be odd! Shags . *Thanks Baby for giving in to me, spending tons of $ . Trusting me and last but not least your endless hugs&kisses of <3 Such a blissful life ! Weekends here i comeeeeeee :)

2009-08-26T10:30:00.000-07:00

Currently in my rm using wi-fi . Went t find HER jusnw ! Will be working at Paragon during hols thanks to my beloved ;D Always the best to mi, for mi . I rather have 1bestest friend than a group of them. Why? Simply bcos some aren't trustable . AGREE?! So what if you have 10 friends w you?, while in times of trouble see what all of them do . Runaway? Bzy w their personal stuff? Boyfriends? Can't be bothered w you? Uh-huh . Pathetic that is . I rather keep away from the fakes . Bcos They aren't w mi for life? The circle of friends changes time and again. Till you've met someone that is comfortable w . Life changes. Memories are thr. Time never stops for you t treasure everyone beside you. Ok.FuckOff Ass's! You don't understand that's all bitch ! Thanks baby, his all that I need. Joy<3 270809Edited: SHE came t look for mi at amk mac w Baby . Missed misses ! Soon soon . S'pore is as small as an ant . Getit? Hell you !

2009-08-21T16:55:00.004-07:00

HAPPY 16th MONTHSARY BABY ,LOVE :) He was there throughout thick & thin . He touched my heart endlessly, The promises we've made, still remains till our very last breath. Our future we planned so nicely never fails (L) Trust,Care,Encouragement,Faithfull=U.S. I knew i disappoint you at times, what ever it takes i would change for the better . I start from 'A' and not 'ZZZ' ! Never to turn back sobbing bout the past . Each movement i'am making is all bcos of you . Even not to skip meals or concentrate on studies . I want you to notice my presence, with a big <33 in me I don't want 16months, but 16years, 160years, 160billionyears t come :) (obviously with one&onlyBoy) Caught Orphan , thrilling! Our bladder almost burst when it was about to end ; HAHA Went shop a lil later on and bought *********** ! Thanks BABY ; mine precious . Headed home bout 930, Apologised !~ Can't wait till holidays ! Found jobs?maybe . *Tell you something bout myself...... I'am Ugly, Balloon-ed, Tall, Mini eyes and Shy ! When it comes to those gorgeous looking ladies, i hid myself in the cupboard ! Don't believe? ........ ....... ...... ..... .... ... .. . .. ... .... ..... ...... ....... ........ ......... .......... ......... ........ ....... ...... ..... .... ... .... ..... ...... ....... ........ ......... ........ ....... ...... ..... .... ... .. . . . . . . Few days back while having open chats w babes in lab :) . . . . . . . . . . . They made our days go crazy :DDDD Terminal3 when having 3 hours of break , shiok or what ! Ate>Puff>CandyEmpire>Bus>School Term ends SOON? Can i miss them all now? :( . . . . . . . . . . . Lastly, Didnt i tell you i was ugly...etc , no?

2009-08-14T19:04:00.000-07:00

So used having you girls as mine company . Can't imagine what will it be like nextyear . Crashed town yesterday with Baby . Caught Hangover, pretty amazing story line ! Go catch it, much better than Local movies certainly . Saw familiar faces all around, they seemed fine :) Thanks Baby for the 2movies in a week ! And stuffxzxcx you bought that i wanted :D LURBXZCXCX! He's so special, my♥ crys out for every hour . The way , is one in a million . The sweet lil talks, those soft/tender kisses each day, Warmest hugs in the universe , &grabbin my hand so tightly afraid i would fall . His pair of eyes, captures my heart . Never failing to end my day w overwhelming joy . His every single move has me/Us in the background . Softsided, warm giving ` The quarrels the tears , fading away ~ The trust && Love never leaves, multiply them ! 1/10 is all they see us based on their eyes . The 1st chapter till today is never easy . Hardships, flashbacks, scars, parents, those dreadful days . Just a lil more time i'm sure . Baby, all i want is you till my ends time . No matter how many obstacle .

2009-08-07T16:49:00.000-07:00

Missed blogging ! Blogger is sucha ass -.- Recently things changed a lot , dono where to begin . Fakes && truths i know them all . MeiYan made Ham+Cheese+Egg Sandwich for me *TOUCHED !! First darling that actually made breakfast for me :$ Yesterday town with BABY caught 'UP' 4.5/5 ! Had some arguements with Baby before movie D: Went high&low searching for his presence D: Somerset>amk, amk>somerset alone ! Everythings fine now :DD Baby was hungry(as usual) he bought 2curry puffs . Muching on his 1st piece while the 2nd piece fell to the ground with a loud thud* * was laughing at him During lunch he dropped a piece of chicken and now again HAHAHAHAHAHA Saw Him saddening, so decided buy Him a replacement with bonus chicken along w it :) Pictures and reality? a real difference . I saw this girl which looked familiar in town. She's a girl that has lots of male friends online due to her nice postings of herself. Saw her was so different, just a normal average lil girl -.- DEAD TIRED YESTERDAY ` had to dragged myself back home with Baby's help beside me . Slpet till 6 this morning and auto awake . Waiting till Sunday Bboyyyyy Morning everyone ! Re-link me if you hapen to pass by ! d

2009-08-03T03:14:00.006-07:00

Outdated . Took from Audrey :D Will it ever be the same? Rewind?! Dionna(L) All of a sudden i miss Him :) School ended at like 12? Waited for Husband to arrive and off to Amk slack . Had 6hrs of sleep so i was a LIVING ZOMBIE TODAY :( Reached home had a big fat home-cooked salmon than my phone started ringing like ....... Magdelene's birthday today at DG couldnt make it (SORRY BABES) Peishan's off day today ! (TOTALLY FORGOTTEN SHIT!) Ling&Shan is at Amk but i'am dead tired D: SORRY honeys , arrange another outings yeah / When you're in love you always get hurt . So find someone who makes your hurt worthwhile :)

2009-07-27T08:43:00.010-07:00

Pictures of me, pictures of U'al . Updating picx slowly ,so you can visit here often Baby did this for me (L)+(L)=MORE(LLLL'S) Tomorrow half day for me, going to my 2nd specialist b'cos of my ear ): GUDLUCKZZ babe for Napfa :D 1)Can't it be as peaceful as before? True colors have destroyed the image of yourself ; Disgrace 2)I fucking need't be on time for classes ! GUAI *Twinks 3)I'am having a block inside my nose/ears/throat SOMEWHERE ????? so my mood totally suck as i can't hear myself at all ): 4)Only He understands me well. Comfy to be with Him all day longggggg ,HUSBAND-2-BE ! sleep tight folks !

2009-07-24T17:59:00.003-07:00

Friday24Julyo9 School as usual, was Darlings model so i slept throughout :D After school, Went 2 a place at tamp area, cab2Eastpoint did ear candle, cab2HougangPoint(Dionna$), Ling's home w Shan, Night waited for Baby fetch me :D I Love Baby l0ts . *My throat infection is alright now . *But my nose is blocked by something and its affecting my hearing -.- DUMB infections D:

2009-07-17T07:01:00.004-07:00

Friday09 Okay, b-o-r-e-d ! Supposedly outing w ps&kl, but failure as always -.- Planned to be free on that day and turned out D: School>tamp>woodlands>amk . So U-turned back and met Meiyan/Dionna/Dionnabf at tamp1 . Make ups were all over our hands , HAHA ! Down to woodlands, had a few chats with Peishan and Mr Phua at TB :) Miss her so much ,sorry for burning up w u two honey !(L) Just hate it when you've planned so nicely and someone cancels it all by one second . And when that happens my blood boils & i'll flare up totally . Nowhere to go cause i've rejected every meetings&outings ` Had this feeling again after so long Its when everyone had their things to do, and left me out Baby out there enjoying himself today , tmr morning uh !! *laughs On Thursday morning, was making mine way down to school. At expo when this FREAK TI KO MAN(mid 30s) followed me D: And guess what ? just to take mine number in a sickening way ! Sibei erxing i tell you . My mind was thinking of Baby only :D So faster msged him . He turned mad, so cooled him down and that's that :) L.BabyAlways<3

2009-07-10T17:39:00.008-07:00

11JULY09 Hi'all School's fine with tons of projects & massage steps to learn . Group members aren't active in those, how sad = HOW GONNA PASS? Friendsfriendsfriends. wheres the trustworthy one? True colours shown . Yesterday watched IceAge3 with BABY . Funny i supposed? Was watching happily when BABY put his hands across my neck i fell asleep for a second ; Bo bian his hand so comfy :) Always do that when we're on bus/mrt back . Moments later his arm starts to ache ! Thats when my massage skills arise :DD BABY'S is so funny when i disturb him >< Love the way he is . I'm sorry for mine poor attitude during night time (L) Next week will be watching Obsessed & catch up with sisters ,hopefully have the time . :D Few months back with church peeps Saw Ahmeng & friends :D Strictly for Seven-TEENS :D *Got a bad bad throat infection , its swollen like fcuk and has white spots all over it bubbly inside !

2009-06-30T17:57:00.002-07:00

29thJune. Babys chalet at dono what countryclub >.< Super stink & dirty ! 30thJune. Appointment . Hengheng :) discharging after a last visit ,Love Dr.Kumu :DD Transformers at town later on.

Apologises i mean it .

2009-06-28T00:00:00.004-07:00

Sorry change of link and life So if you're hating it, just get lost . I Want my Baby back ! Swollen goldfishs eyes, lil sleep, headache, neckache you name it i have them all . So so so hateful world but with Babys chances i will live life with Him . May be my attitude sucks, bear with me . You'll see difference soon i promise ! I will love you till the end of my life . MemoryVerse: LET THE WICKED FORSAKE HIS WAY, AND THE UNRIGHTEOUS MAN HIS THOUGHTS: LET HIM RETURN TO THE LORD, AND HE WILL HAVE MERCY ON HIM AND TO OUR GOD, FOR HE ABUNDANTLY PARDON . No matter how many sin we committed, God will forsake/give us and bring us back with HIM . He has the holy spirit with us protecting through thick&thin . When times were bad HE was there beside me all this while ; I wished everything was fine now ; I wished He will be happy&living ; Because i care for Him as much as God cares for us all . BYEEE(rest my buldging eyes )

Saturday now .

2009-06-26T18:47:00.003-07:00

Late night shopping at town on friday . Being tall is an advantage . Packed with working class humans . Was freaking giddy && felt so weak yesterday . Lucky i had Him beside me :) Saw many familiar faces ,which if i saw them earlier i would rather pretend .... Todays Topic: Why do all males love woman that is all skinny and hour glass figure? Long-haired, all dressed up & gorgeous make up? Do you ever wonder why? I wonder, what if you were to be one of those girls that is plump/chubby would all of your guy friends turn and run away or stay as per normal ? I'm sure they would run trust me In olden days fat people = wealthier, happier Thin people = mul-nutritioned, poor . Stupid enough for girls to lose weight till bones are sticking out everywhere ! While i envy plump people who is full of self-esteem and being happy:) There's so much i could say tough just lazy . You know from a 75kg-49kg is a lot to lose . 26kg zunzun . Imagine how hard i worked to get to this ?! But the person in me is still similar to the FAT&UGLLLY girl i used to be 4years back . And those elastic skin is around me like some rubber . Lastime i ate a whole fish burger with chili and all ,now i eat the stuffing in between . Wierd way of eating i've no idea why . MonsterBaby i loveeeeyouuuu :DD Plans nextweek . He love to see ahgua's than LOL . HEEHEE.

2009-06-23T19:40:00.002-07:00

Hi'all . I'll post soon REAL soon ! Edited: ur facial therapy gt A Hand and Foot Care gt A Effective Communication gt B GPA:3.789 congrats ^^ (Thanks ling for checking) ♥x10 Well, hard work pays off . Your can do better don't give up huhhh !

CHAODA

2009-06-16T17:46:00.006-07:00

Chalet with babes . I swear i enjoyed myself freaking much after so long . Chicken all chaoda . So... slacked,BBQed,21,pic,fruits,smoked,drinked,home with Boy Caileng kisiao after drinking . Like imh run out ! notice these pictures i grabbed have my grandaughtr in it ?

2009-06-16T17:41:00.012-07:00

Taught ASPN students manicure/makeup . Was a fun learning experience . Mentality low but they still are able to enjoy themselves :) So did i and the rest ! Show choir at Esplande . Us + Kawen help touchedup make ups !

If i were a boy .

2009-06-14T19:17:00.004-07:00

Let you take a look at how bouncy i was 4years back . I love food at that age then, but now no one understands why iam so fussed up ..... ~ Update later or tomorrow during those events happening/happened ;D GOOD MORNING! GOOD NITE! if i were a boy, no more tears . iloveHimsoVERYYYmuch~

Outdated pictreexxx !

2009-06-08T17:09:00.014-07:00

Pizzas Day . Darling,Caileng,Angel&Dionna . Lovables . Tricia :) PizzaDay~ long ago tough . Angel is sexy :)))))

2009-06-07T08:16:00.002-07:00

Pictures of me && youus . Thanks for every lil thing you've done for me . Sweetest moments ~

2009-06-05T08:02:00.009-07:00

05Juneo9 Started off with school . Meilien's mine model and im her model. Okay take turns to play with the colours . Perfecting Audrey Hepburn's facial features , her eyebrows are thick but she has a sweet looking face still . For us, its a different story ~ My mum's time when this is called Beautiful . From Ang Mo Kio to (Simei) takes 1hour everyday of my time . Either Mrt/Bus it still takes a long trip before i reach school . Punctuality ~ Went for lunch, waited for Baby to arrive and off to Expo(John lil Sales) I think this week is the last week . Better take a peep there ;GSS! Bought Charles&Keith heels, Japanese MilkCandy, & Baby's urge for this potatochip. He can eat a dozen of these, his favourite snack :) After all those cravings, headed down HaborFront Tried on the heels, as tall as mine husband at least . Bought a shirt at Pull&Bear, Guardian-exfoliating wash and facial wash . Cold storage; APPLE JUICE ! He puffed and off back to Amk . S'poreans including myself ok are so kan chiong ! Weather status now : Bloody suana in the late hour freak. Nextweek is gona be hectic week agn . MissTay is buying us PIZZAS ,wheres the salads? :X The love in me, is the love within .

2009-06-02T17:11:00.003-07:00

3rdJune-o815 . Wokeup 6 today, for nothing . Last exam starts at 11 -.- Hoping at least a 2.8(GPA) ,overcome all circumstances . I have a intention to join a makeup application/confidence class ! Either amk or town. Just for some funnnnn or maybe i'am too bored !? There's always his shoulders to lean on :) (when im tired) HAHAHAHA~ damn lousy quality! I prefer the one overseas NOOB s'porens . i realized i missed a lot of Q's for FTY paper . Unlucky shit ! Holidays are here . Buttt there's school for me tmr :( As well as nextwk and everyday guai anort huh ?! And once again i did a shameful thing in public , bcos ........ I Live For You,w/O yous im GONEEE . I wana hold on bcos i noe its you im waiting for :) I believe, I swear, I trust .

2009-05-29T08:43:00.009-07:00

29MAYo9 (grabbed picsx) What a day . Mixed feelings today all at once . MY,CL,XW & Babys friends were watching free show during break . Their piece of art(above). I wonder how am i going to shade those thick eyebrows :X Challenging i likeeeeee . After 3days im free of studying , but some project to do first bfore ...... BABY I'LL BE CLINGING ONTO YOU ; CANT LEAVE ME ALONE IN THIS FREAK'IN WORLD ; something you take years to build up, and only seconds to destroy it?! ♥♥♥

2009-05-29T08:36:00.003-07:00

27MAYo9 Aft PE lessons slacking at usual C1 . Okay, foursome as carzy as always ! Love the peeps ,cause we have same dreams ahead. Can't wait for their chalet ! 17jun. 4different character/attitudes/voices/face shapes/hair styles ! Each and everyone of us is unique .

2009-05-23T19:08:00.003-07:00

23rdMAYo9 Spent in school . Doing pedi , good deed okay no pay at all :) Everyone was tired indeed . Aft, headed to SK for the last visit to Baby's home till sunset . Exams coming, i gorta stick my butt to the chair ! I won this match ,my legs are longer la CAILENG :) i kissed a girl 24thMAYo9 Started a day with church service at 830 ,than classes at 1100 As usual, Jamie always asking advices from me :D Im her bigger sister *LAUGHS ! Headed to YISHUN>AMK>BLK with Peishan . LJS is depolishing sn FAREwell lj -.- Funny joke , MingLiang told Johnson he saw a chiobu ! They came all the way down in the end .... MEEEE they were saying . Eyes blind i tell you ! Had heart2heart talks with PPS . She's currently **** at ***** dont tell you ! our secret . Time will come when she'll announce to public . Saw Anqi my pri school mate, time flies you know . Saw afew others too, which they mia-ed for a period of time I can't afford to lose you, I need you so badly , I want your heart&soul , Can you stay and not go ? Im so alone w/o you . Im so afraid things might change . Cause we're young and immature minds . Baby, stay by me and don't change a thing will you ?

2009-05-20T07:51:00.004-07:00

Had a real workout today . Gym during pe, and a swim after school with MEIYAN&ALI ;D I just feel i'am so unhealthy . Baby's presence wasn't with me, but his voice were as cute as ever ! He accompanied me on the phone for 2hours while waiting for mine parents arrivval . :DD How nice right . Headed to lecture hall as per normal Principal talk lmao shitxzxcx . Slept half way through was exhausted and hungry D: Oh well, time passed . & my dad did such embarrasing thing ! Even the principal talked to me face to face talking to me . Had a talk with CA . Wasn't a bad thing afterall . Satisfaction :D i'll work hard, extra super hard after today's words of encouragment they gave . 2nd person i know of, said im INDEPENDENT . I could stay on my own without anyone . You make a difference in my life `

2009-05-19T03:32:00.005-07:00

Overdue pics ,grabbed fr darling ! Thanks to her my blogskin is :D:D:D Enjoying school days w them .I wished we will nbr split . Pictures taken by an Angmoh guy , were heading to Bugis :) High elements that day, while classmates were high up we were zilian-ing :) The awesome four's this year ! During hubby's stay in hospital !

Time ticks every second forward

2009-05-15T07:48:00.003-07:00

Took massage as mine next module , correct choice? This week tests are over and i passed all . LLA im in deep shit . I need a break with KIT-KAT and baby :) Anyway, BABY is doing much better physically . Mentally , Emotionally ? feel many unseen things are pilling up slowly . He needs me ,i'll stay Strong for him . I must say, i truly need him cause he understands me inside out . Its hard to find guys like Him ! jealous? better be . Stay strong , he'll be fine and so must you . Things happen for an unknown reason . Thanks peepal for accompany-ing me sneaking into the wards ! Nurses are stopid ass's . Okay my recent posts arent having any pics , SOLIE LA no USB cable . So just fcuk aside if u're not interested in reading . True friends are hard to come by, but i've found my love for me alone . Dionna,Meiyan make up ur messy minds i wana swim :D

Nightmare,he wil b alright .

2009-05-11T14:30:00.007-07:00

BA D N EW S ! DAMN it . Can i rewind today all over again . I was sound asleep when i just jumped out of bed . A sudden urge to check my charging phone which is at the end of my bed . My Baby ...something horri ble happened to Him, i couldnt believe as though it was a dream . Tears came soon after realizing ,i can't get back to sleep now ! Its 500 in the morning now -.- When your love one just got hurt, how would you feel? I'm feeling the same as he does, pain/sad/angry/scared and worried bout the other partner . I'm so lost for the 2nd time ,when his not around meeeee :( All i could do is wait for his reply, useless i am . I k now his strong enough to pull through, and God will be with you throughout all circumstances ! He'll answer prayers . Cause i believe .............. *Wished i could give school a miss today.Can i ?! *I wished i could get there right NOW to be with him . All i can do is pray pray and pray for now, visiting him later as promised !! WTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTF WTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTF WTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTF WTFWTFWTWFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTF WTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTF WTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTF WTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTF WTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTF WTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTF

2009-05-09T06:55:00.002-07:00

9Mayo9 Thanks for all wishes :) I was kinda lazy to reply anyones wishes .This year is the worst b'day ever . Besides spending my day with Baby in town ,its the worst so far D: Thanks for the card & jacket although its last min . Thoughts that counts my mum thought me so . I was expecting HER,HER msg's the whole day ! Till the very last 9mins, i forced her to wish me before its over . How funny right, but she rmbered ;D unlike some (*&#$%^&*&%^$^& ... Happy Mum's Day mum :) Thanks for bringing me up all these 17yrs . Don't act like you understand me ,seems so fakeeee ! I don't fucking care how many accompany-ment you have, for me i go for Character not popularity nor looks . Tmr Babyyyy is coming over to cook for us , heheeeeee xD I wana shop ,prawning, find a job, enjoy

Can i disappear 2 days frm now?

2009-05-06T05:51:00.004-07:00

6May. Happy 17th Birthday Tricia .Study smart play hard ,hope you enjoyed my facial massage :) Tests pilling up nowadays, but i'm feeling normal no stress coming along . Omfg, you'll never guess what my classmate did when we're in the lift packed full of humans -.- Shyshy :$ HA! How cute can they get :D jokers of BG . And ya, a small lil tiff with BABBY . I just hate to disrupt each others mood im awfully bad . My Baby mentioned he have many scars (internal) ,i buy you whitening essence to take away those dark scars can i ? I have so many things to say ,but ............. i don't wana tel u mai kpo :) I don't wana show a thing, I don't wana face the world , I DON'T LIKE YOU !

2009-05-01T19:07:00.001-07:00

1MAYo9. What a day, cycled round amk :) Eating all day long . Tomorrow celebrating mine b'day . It'll never be the same .

2009-04-30T17:16:00.010-07:00

30April2009 Baby's previous hairstyle ,cute or nort ;) Always on my mind .Caught this movie in PS on thurs, not bad but ending was like .........

M-Darling&Ali watched it too at kallang .While Caileng&Xiwen had their usual food in cafe.1 with HFD peeps.

Had paraffin wax test afew days ago . HENG sia passed :)

Played the wax instead of doing duties ! Xiwen's hair always get caught ,either too messy or colour not appropiate :X Must follow ahma's example such frindge-less hair (on this day only):D

I know GOD's presence is there leading me through this disgusted world full of evil-thoughts & doings . I BELIEVE so. Are such peeepal meant to trust ? Reality so unreal .

2009-04-17T18:52:00.004-07:00

Edited; Haunts me when you said how bad i was ,can i ever say i regretted all those i've done . I was stupid enough to fall into their trap . 16April. Bugis w/ the foursomes , rockxczx :) Caileng auntie hilarious ,v.pretty auntie. :D Xiwen egg white always c8-ing jokes , no fun w/o her ! Meiyan darlink LOVES! lastlong w ALI& ME . There's this Angmoh pai took our pic .And said we looked like japanese girls . Wonder where will he post it to?! 17April. TM1, pretty awesome mall . Cool experience watching baby cut his coolie hairstyle . Pictures not so soon, cause i can't upload it . He's so cute with any hair cut , HIS mine baby ! 18April. At last weekends :) where would i be heading in the near future? i wished i knew the answers . It just popped out of now-where . Evening slacked with PPS & co, it's been so long youll'know . my life has just been cutted short ,1stick :(:(:( Miss my husband so soon just few mins ago saw him . Lastly HAPPY B'DAY YINRU & JUNJIE ;D

2009-04-08T19:23:00.002-07:00

Having an urge to have this ! Angel introduced me blackeggs made in Taiwan :)

This week is ending real quick ,school's starting how sad !

But i'll be seeing my baby every wkdays fr nextweek onwards,

and lots more ycks peeeepal :B

3NJOY`

[♥...][...♥]

2009-04-06T08:46:00.004-07:00

Your warm embrace i loveeeeeeeeeeeee. (when im cold *) You're a part of me, how can lose a part of myself? WEEHEEE` Try'ing get attention fr friends? 21st century dude ! WU LA LA ! kiss my ass la , cheapos . What's the difference btw better looking girls and not so good looking girls? Why judge me,us,them,they,i,her,she ? *Oh and i forgot i've got a fire temper ;D i sinned today, a stick !

2009-04-03T09:27:00.004-07:00

Disliking peeepal's name with a starting alphabet 'E' . Disliking brainless hongsters nowadays , AVOID! Loving Y I K O O N muchie muchix , trustable baby . My loving sister came to find me 2continuous days, but i was bz :C I Miss You A lot , funland soon ok . 4 cilents today and no smiles while serving . i need long sleep !

2009-04-01T22:31:00.005-07:00

2ndApril ,1.40 After 6hrs of zzzzz. You' know , seeing them suceed my lil ego decreases . That's where my self-esteem lowers itself, how can i help others when i can't help myself. I don't wana be left behind din an un-known world , Ok Fuck Those Peeeeepal !Go jump down and die miserably ! I'am going work noww ,oily stuffxzx. When will God call me back i wonder, or would he be down here by than.

Hatred

2009-04-01T08:48:00.009-07:00

i shall talk to the 4 or maybe 6 walls now, how bout my fast running hamster???? unlike you . EMOTIONS RUNNING WILD. Tonight may be just a dream, or may be a scar i have for life. idk where to start` i wonder ~

2009-03-30T21:40:00.018-07:00

Updated pics , theres still more though . Enjoy :)

*grabbed frm none other than ,

HER> Just 6 :C ---- :)

Our favourite reflector, it makes all women happy .

S I SO LO B E A C H .

sKINNY Anyway Peishan wasnt in any pics bcos SHEEEEE's asleep. Met her at night chatted at usual place . Met him than home . Anyway my dad has gone mentally mad ! Hadn't talked to him much recently . Even cash isnt from him WTFXZXCX! work work work (but i don't feel like it)

Just a few days left before school starts , Suck ! Needa buckup .

Out again TATAS peeeeepalll !!

Cheap

2009-03-29T16:58:00.011-07:00

The most impt thing to a girl its her virginity ehs? low-class girls are born brainless to let a low-class guy to take that away from them . That kinda suck , a useless S.L.UT . So fucking cheap . FOC(night market oso nid $) ! Why not go find gigolos? -,- can't stand those cheap girls fooling around like they're so biggggg throwing themselves at any guy that comes their way . eeeerrk! Throw our women faces ! You hong like no one's busniess, mindless lil girl. just afraid of being alone with no'one loving u , pity la dehh! Ashamed, be v.ashamed u B!tch. Just have sex with em all u want ! sure you'll cry aloud in the near future regretting . Happy being foc :) TO : Be♥'ed KAILING i know you've been sad all this while, afraid of losing his L.O.ve. i can't say anything much now, cause it will never go into your head currently. i've never been there recently to hear your complaints and all , Reassured i'll be there if you need a listening ear ;B He may be gone, but memories are kept within . Dare to love better be able to take up the concequences . It's alll part and parcile of life , there will be a lot more to come . Just bare with it, get back the hard-wrking you again ! Just rmbr either shan/me - 24hour fones are working ;D Takecare sister and much loveee ! Edited : 12:00 31st March Ycks>Vivo>Sentosa>Causeway>Amk Waiting for em upload pics ~ weeheeeee :) That feeling came bk wen im with em , whereby i relax myself and laugh naturally . Do tgc , meetup again .

2009-03-26T17:24:00.004-07:00

25-7th March. Tm>Expo>Amk Vivo>Amk Sk>Chinatwn>Hougang>Amk Same routine almost everyday, money fly high ! Looking forward on MONdayxxzcxx ! Hope its a sucess after a long while ") 28th March. Simei>Yishun>Amk later on . I love my LaoshuaiGe ! He's sleeping like a log now when he supposed to wakeup . BUTT ... His words r realiable u'knw :D I kinda miss school&co. I can't get myself to sleep once clock strikes 6 -.- Like a daily tingyyyy . F@@@

a lil too much

2009-03-22T19:01:00.014-07:00

Overdue,

Stop zilian-ing , do my nails :X :D ilove MeiYan skill's !

Peishan

my be♥'ed girl , i wna be there for her till de end :)

Ling2 babe !

23rd March`09

Went to bed early yesterday ,while he was outside watching tv -,-

apologizes v.tired !

So couldn't get to sleep now ,woke up like 4? than 7?

And now infront com screen -.-

Heading to yishun later , im broke Fu@k

Tmr will be a better day !

Always my baby, 1year soon !

2009-03-13T21:38:00.009-07:00

Feeling like @#$%^&~ right now don't ask why ! I'm mad , rREALLLLL mad . I can kill anyone NOWWW! a mis-understanding or ur words arent real animor D: i could cry a thousand river and no one knows ! This is when it hurts de most ! P/S : Pearlyn helpppp ! how make tag box? loves*

Life's unfair .

2009-03-13T07:10:00.012-07:00

Start w these pics ~

Mine choc,cookie dearyy painting mine "NICE SMELLYING" toes ! :X I love CHUNGmeiyan mor den her bf !

BACK .

uhhh , my week is v.very relaxed i can say so .

Cause i passed my Test !

34/40 easy peacy ! culd have done better .

Had fun during klas mostly w XW,MY,CL&mi non-Senseing :X

I wana have a DIPLOMA in this line siols , HELP `

Today Fri13

SCH > BUGIS > HOME > GYM > zzzzzz

Mine wrking place is gona close dwn sn , who will employ mi agn ?D:

BABY accompanied me when im down ,

He made me smile when im moody ,

His stupid-ness filled my life w/ laughter ,

And he owe mi a Jaguar/sports/family Car .

An apartment , and my mnthly payment :)

Don't forget okayy !

mine mine ALL mine . don't snatch i'll bite `

2009-03-08T06:37:00.004-07:00

This's called sexy ! Idk how they could survive .

Can i quit schooling and be lady boss ?!-.-

A verse i learnt a lot from ;

And when He come ,

He will convict the world of sin ,

and of righteousness , and of judgement ; of sin .

Because they don't believe in me .

John16:8-9.

2009-03-06T07:30:00.008-07:00

During lesson times , Horse Weili Ling Shan Me :D

You know , i miss your 6 !

They are with me , but in my heart all of them .

No one to turn to No one to trust w/o ur .

Someone to depend on makes a difference .

1Bake cookies ,

2Waitress,

2Accountants,

1Beautician,

1Sec5.

I know your can do it ;

SKP-LovesMosts!

Trustable yet fun-loving `

Every single thing .

2009-03-06T07:12:00.003-07:00

Like FINALLYYYYY weekends ! How tough can life get , tests going on for weeks . SHAG ` Accompanied MeiYan for make-up practical today. Pretty relax but exhausteddddddddddd zzzz. Well , Luo Zhi Xiang was nearby my school area , and Weili was like there already -.- Sucha fan he have :D I know he did his job as a dad, father, friend, son, teacher, husband :) I was there for a reason i know , learnt a lot . -R.I.P- Mr Walter Khoo , i know you're in heaven's mansion with God up above . Rest assured your beloved's will carry on with life rmbring a decent man like you . I just miss those naggings u gave since pri3 D: TCKARE up there i'll seee you soon i'm sure , GOD BLESS!❤ p/s my bestest tcher !

2009-03-03T05:30:00.003-07:00

This'is both cute Stella & Pearlyn , Cute rite don't envy . Xiwen try'ing to b cute when shes cute enough -.-

Ohh well . I found something so happening ! BiTches do spam unknown babes :o

So funny right ! i know , cause very entertaining .

Come`on entertain my tags too honey :)

Exams coming , i gtg eat, sleep and breathe well to pass .

Mine husband is finally in this school , rockxczxcz tis stuffxxx !

2009-02-27T22:31:00.001-07:00

I Wished i was in God's arms like this lucky kid . Never letting us down w his presence!

DREAMS i pursue

2009-02-27T18:59:00.002-07:00

Picture of me , pictures of you `

Yesterday had my first 2 Clients ! Cool okay although they're just ex maids . Well , i did my best for them pretty satisfied . what i got in return was smiles/ty's and CIP hours .

I love dolling up every women on earth , when they smile im very contented w what i did :)

School excursions were fun tough .

Went PARAGON/THE RETREAT , i wished i was the lady boss daughter !

Can inherit her spa :)

0kayyyyyy,it won't hapen .

I shall work hard to be the next top MAKE-up artist for whatsoever country , as long as im top top top !!!

I will acheive what i want ! i hope so

No matter what i want to make it hapen !

IMPOSSIBLES tuhhhhhh POSSIBLES i must :D

At lasts its week ends ,

BABY,iloveyou so♥

You're mine life,mine soul.

Isn`t Meant to be .

2008-12-26T08:03:00.000-07:00

Applied f0r Simei[: Glad i Made it to all Courses i ever wanted to get in. Thank God ! Met my deaR at compass,&stupidest ting we did . We arrived at Terminal3 like Wtf , So mad . Cabbed down to Simei . Met grandaughtr . How forgetful ` BAd bad tiff w/ dear , APOLOGISED . && everyting was back to normal :) I held him tight in my heart , cant imagine life w/o HIM . He sacrifised alm0st all , All i ever did was .....nothing?.................. the m0st horrible gf ever eh? Whatever ! I dont wana disappoint u ever again , those tears t0ok u one in a zillion years to drop out . And i hate that feeling of you getting all fuckedUp . Useless+Useless=Perfect ` And ya thanks Ling sis , that hug was so memorable !

I wished every Single damn ting was Perfect

2008-12-12T08:10:00.000-07:00

*missing* wallet . HELLLLLL no ! but yes, i once again lose it ALL! My money ? How am i gona spend it when im out ! Piece of Shitzxzxzxzzxxzxx. I swear i will skin the person alive . How damn sway my life's going to be huh? I guess i wan't a good girl D: Well,i can't go on tinking bout this darn day . Tmr's shan birthday ! Bought her stuff's hope she'll love me even more tmr:) Ling bought almost same stuff as me ! HA . It will be hell fun tmr. but gorta work first,Grrrrrr~ i live my life Alone .